The fastest month of my life...

So let's try to recap the fastest month of my life...

Valentine's day, I began active labor. Feb. 15, my sweet baby boy was born. My labor and delivery was a very peaceful and joyous experience. I was happy to have all of my immediate family be able to see him hours after he was born. So much love and happiness filled the room. I hope it's a feeling I never forget.

Memorable moments:

-   Feeling of relief once the epidural kicked in.
-   Having a church friend be my nurse.
-   Logan having the hiccups while being 6 cm dilated.
-   Travis praying for me moments before I began pushing.
-   My doctor sharing a verse in the middle of my labor: God works all things to the good of those who love Him.
-   Looking at Travis's face after they placed Logan on my chest and both of us managing not to ball.
-   Travis and I singing Logan happy birthday during our alone time.
-   Snuggling my little one on my chest for the first time.
-   The fire alarm going off as a practice drill.

So what they say is true. A baby changes your life. I hated hearing some of the negative aspects everyone seems to remind you of while you are pregnant. Do you loose sleep? Sure, but coffee becomes your best friend. (Thank you whoever invented the keurig.) Hey, I had to make up for not drinking any for 9 months somehow. Right? Logan, you have quickly taught me how to be selfless (or at least not as selfish) and how much of a time waster I am. I thought I knew how to put others before myself, but not until you have a child, do you fully understand how to really do that. Hot meals, showers, trips to the bathroom all wait to quite your little one who seems to be fighting gas pain or sleep. But once you are in the most peaceful looking sleep, momma is able to get anything she wants during that hour or two done. Not to mention, you've taught me how to use my left hand and do things one handed that I never could before. I'm sure you will teach me about time, because I don't know where it went this past month besides feeding, sleeping, and diaper changes. You are also teaching me a different kind of love. A love that I have for no other. Thank you Logan for the lessons you already teaching me and the changes in life already. I can only imagine what our new life has in store.

The newborn stage is hard and difficult, but when your beautiful big eyes meet mine while I'm rocking you, I know the sleep I have lost is worth it. When you snuggle up on my chest and place your head on your arms and make the sweetest face because your belly is full, I know the pain and time of breastfeeding is worth it. When I see that smile, I know helping you fight through the gas pains is worth it. Even though you are probably stretching the neck on some of my shirts by gripping it tight, it's worth it to give you content. The countless times we put back on the one sock you manage to always loose (even while swaddled) but it keeps those toesies warm, so it's worth it. The fact that you are not a fan of baths, it's worth it, to keep that sweet soft smooth skin clean. The fact that you literally scream the entire time your diaper is being changed until that last button on the onsie is snapped and you are lifted up, magically you are content. It's worth it, to know I've met your need. Even though momma has only been out the house a couple of times thus far, your needs are being met, so it's worth it. In case you don't know, momma loves you lots.

Memorable Moments:

-   Almost one week old - sleeping in - having skin to skin time with mom and dad.
-   First time we gave you a bath, you screamed the entire time. Then when momma wrapped you up in a towel, you proceeded to poo. Once momma removed the towel and was about to put a diaper on you, you peed all over me - in which I had JUST took a shower and put on clothes other than pjs. Crazy thing is that I hadn't changed a single diaper and yet I got peed and pooed on...
-   First walk around the block in your stroller - you hated the sun in your eyes. Then screamed half way home since you barely had a wet diaper.
-   Taking newborn pictures at 2 weeks old.
-   Most used word to describe you: adorable.
-   Momma's sleep deprive moment: almost every night, waking daddy up saying, "Take him" because I'm thinking you are still in my arms after feeding, and I want to sleep. Some nights, this happens multiple times.
-   Your name suits you well, since we have had to clip your "claws" at least 5 times so far and your scratches on your face heal quickly (very similar to Logan the Wolverine) and you look just like your Poppa (Travis's dad - Dwain, Logan's middle name) when he was a baby.
-   When you are eating sometimes you make a fist with just your pinky up, so momma says you are having "tea time." 


What you love:
Daddy rocking you.
Momma singing to you. Especially, "Some Where Over the Rainbow."
Your hands. You love to put them by your face while eating and sometimes squish your face - meal time gets intense for you. They are a big comfort to you by sucking on fingers or knuckles.
Meal time.
The way daddy swaddles you.
Ceiling fans - moving or not moving.
Holding your head up. Everyday in the mid-morning you have to have some time to do this.
Being held. You let anyone hold you.

What you are not a fan of:
A little pee in your diaper. Dirty ones are ok though. We don't get it...and this makes us go through A LOT of diapers to keep you happy.
Diaper changes.
Bath time. (But you are getting better)
Changing clothes.
Being naked?
You have a love hate relationship with the pacifier.
Fighting your sleep.
Gas pains. (No one blames you for this one)
I'm going to say the microwave because every time momma decides to use it, you decide otherwise...

Weight
Birth: 7 lbs. 11 oz
1 month: 9 lbs. 12 oz

Height
Birth: 20.25"
1 month: 22.25"

Thank you, God, for choosing me to be this little fella's momma.

Love you, Logan.

Peace, Love, and a New born baby,
-Miche